Excuse the Mistakes; I’m a bit Dyslexic.

Excuse the Mistakes; I’m a bit Dyslexic.

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This beautiful illustration by Ohgigue perfectly captures how my head feels sometimes.

One way and another I’ve used this blog to face all my demons. Writing is good like that. It’s therapeutic. I realised recently that a rarely speak about being Dyslexic. To be clear, I don’t feel like it’s a huge deal. However it definitely has an impact on the way I process things. So I thought it may be exploring in list form, so here goes:


  • My dyslexia makes me miss out words when I write. I’m sure you’ve noticed.

  • I feel embarrassed every-time I spot a post or Whatsapp with a mistake in it. I hate t that it makes me look thick or lazy.

  • The best way I can explain it is that my head is always ahead of my fingers.

  • I under achieved academical. My GCSE and A Level results don’t reflect my ability. I pass it off as ‘one of those teenage things’. In reality I worked hard and didn’t reap the rewards.

  • But I did get to do all sorts of highlighting and filing as part of my elaborate revising technic. Stationary makes me irrationally happy.

  • People say “I am a bit Dyslexic” –  can’t understand why you’d want to pretend to have a learning disorder? Mind you ‘a bit OCD’ gets thrown around too much too. 

  • I got a grant for a computer and a mini-disc player at uni. It felt like winning the lottery. It did genuinely help though. Spell check changed my life.

  • Dyslexia makes stuff scramble in my head. Sometimes I swear I can actually feel thoughts churning.

  • The scrambling is shit but it’s also where all the good creative stuff happens. 

  • When I start to write I actually don’t know what is going to come out. It’s amazing.

  • For me the thinking bit isn’t hard. It’s the rearranging it into sentence that make sense that is time-consuming.

  • List are my way of cheating.

  • Short sentences mean less room for mistakes.

  • I find it hard to process when plans change. My husbands says I totally lose my shit. I come across as in-flexible control freak. Give me 15 minutes to get my head round it. And then usually I am ok. Unless of course the new plans are rubbish, in which case the control freak in me will probably still pipe up.

  • I didn’t get diagnosed Dyslexic until my last term of A-levels. I feel a bit bitter about it. Then again I was hardly destined to be a lawyer or doctor. So the universe still took me to the right place.

  • It’s an old joke. But why did they make Dyslexia do stupidly hard to spell?

  • I never got my b’s and d’s the wrong way round.

  • I didn’t get to wear the glasses with the funny coloured lenses. Do kids still wear them? In my head they seem more of a weird 90’s trend than a learning tool.

  • My nemesis is things with double letters or repeated sequences of letters. I have to google how to spell ‘availability’ every time. Or make up daft cues. Necessary =  one coffee (C) and two sugars (SS). Yup. The struggle is really people!

  • I am shit at learning dance routines. Or any sequence of movements. That whole rub your tummy, pat your head stuff? Totally mind-boggling. Give me a couple of glasses vino and  I’ll still throw shapes regardless, who cares that I’m pretty badly coordianted?!

  • And taking down phone numbers. I always managed to get them in the wrong order. Even now, Mum makes me check it twice. Thankfully goodness for technology. Even I can’t fuck up ‘save contact.’

  • A copywriter who is also dyslexic? Yup I feel like a fraud writing it. My punctuation and sentence structure might be all over the shop, but my muddled mind finds it easy to inhabit many different tones of voice. I can hear the way people speak and translate it into writing. A bit like music I suppose.

  • I’ve read that Dyslexia gives you a natural ability to think outside the box. To be perceptive. To see links and patterns between things that other people might not. Which sounds about right to me.

  • Plus I am in good company: Steve Jobs, Richard Branson,  Albert Einstein. They are all Dyslexics who did alright.

  • Oh and Dyslexia makes you emotional apparantly. Combine that with being a Pieces, a mother, hormonal, frequently sleep-deprived, plus full-moon and Mecury Retrograde – if i am not crying/questioning everything, I’ll probably be eating chocolate.

  • So that’s it. Sozza about the lack of funnies in this. It’s more informative than laugh out loud. I mainly  try to talk about stuff that other people don’t.  That said, my dyslexia is relatively mild, I’d love to hear of anyone else’s experience…

  • And in the meantime, ignore all the mistakes!! xx

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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8 thoughts on “Excuse the Mistakes; I’m a bit Dyslexic.

  1. This is one of my favourite lists! It’s such an insight into dyslexia, so thanks for sharing. Love the way you describe being able to inhabit different voices and see patterns and links. The brain and how it works is fascinating and I have always been intrigued by how many incredibly artistic/creative people are dyslexic. I am completely the opposite in that my brain just instinctively knows how to spell stuff and I have an ear for grammar – but even I always get words like ‘necessary’ or occasion (gonna make that two coffees one sugar) wrong first time so thanks for the tip! Keep being amazing xx
    PS Fucking Mecury retrograde

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  2. I have the same and can never spell oppurnity and sometimes just give up and try to re write instead of working it out. I proof read my blogs about 60,000 times before giving it to the husband to read and I get really nervous, strange isn’t it. I’m quite proud that I write a blog as it totally out of my comfort zone and never thought I could do it. So I totally hear you on this post glad I’m not the only one. P.S. I’m desperate for a fringe trim too 😀😀😀 X

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    1. gahhhhhh trying to use other words to say what you want to say because you can’t spell the actual word. So.bloody.annoying. TOMORRROW – tomorrow I am determined to get this fringe sorted…

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  3. This is me! This is me! This is ME! I was diagnosed in finals year at Uni. You highlight so many things that I do and thought was just me being crap, but might actually be due to my dyslexia: scrambling sentences, double letter trouble (I’ve loose -or is that lose?- count of the number of times I end up using a different word because I can’t spell the one I want to use), numbers the wrong way around, plan-change head-fuck, and the positive stuff to! Emotional (not sure if that’s positive or not sometimes though), thinking outside the box, making obtuse (but brilliant if I say so myself which I rarely do and usually end up apologising In case people find the link peculiar) connections, being creative, hearing how people speak and translating it into writing… You have made my day. I was in tears reading that because SOMEONE ELSE GETS IT! Thank you thank you thank you.

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  4. Reading your list was like reading about myself. This is me all over!! I can relate to everything you wrote in there and it made me chuckle because I feel the same way and have done the same things after 10 years of having the same mobile phone number mastered it off by heart recently to then change it!! Give another 10 and I can tell you it without referring to “me” in my contacts. I did a law degree and am now a Project Manager and did not let me dyslexia get in the way even though some of my essays did not express what I was thinking. I recently started a new job and realised I would be doing a heck of a lot more writing than I did in my last role. This panicked me so much I instantly convinced myself I would be sacked and it took everything for me to tell my boss who was really supportive but yet did not know anything about dyslexia. My boss is now fully informed and they have offered any help they can give and am going to send me to the BDA to see what they can offer me.

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  5. Love this list. I wasn’t officially diagnosed until last year of uni. I remember reading the 60 page report on me and having a weight lifted from my shoulders. All those awful parts of me (the messiness, the freezing in the face of deadlines, the inability to do a cartwheel) were because of this condition. My husband is a teacher and recently went to a conference on dyslexia, came home, hugged me, and said ‘I didn’t realise how much of your life it affected (effected? Sod it, you understand). I quit my sensible career a few years ago to do what I love for hardly any money – apparently self employed people are more likely to be dyslexic. Now I embrace to positives it brings and I’m psyching myself up to start a blog!

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